Macbook Pro

cant beat the deal I got at fry's today 1699$ for the system normally 1999$ better than student discount at the Apple store
this is a very nice machine...

now to get used to OS-X


School + Work + Family = A LOT OF WORK

But I love the school work but its a great way to disciplinemyself

Sasha's brother moves to PDX in a month with helping me get on board with his ex-wife companythingybobber  to code apps for iphone/ipod touch..Good opportunity for me, can learn that not too hard, the SDK is nice.

Get my Macbook pro in few days.....now to start liking coffee more and sit at coffee shop do homework be total trendy geek but whatever. I dont trust laptops after that damn HP fell apart

Now to work on homework.

This is life

i like my job
I hate the commute

i love my wife
but ungrateful for what she does

i am an ass
i have to many addictions

up over 3k$ at the casino and cant stop
back to drinking too much


atleast panic attacks have stopped

This is life....

Parenting.....god I still suck at it. and just cant grasp certain parts and feel like I am a failure in that department. My kids are smart.. but they are little shits.............wait......I was the same way........I am acting the same way my parents did...but sometimes not knowing which one is in trouble ugh...

Sasha......................................I'd be lost without her. laying in bed watching her sleep...happy to be with her...she works hard around the house between kids, making breakfast lunch and dinner cleaning doing laundry..doing all the stuff i dont do.. because me working sleeping or my pure laziness

Work..............its work.................I like my job.. i want to go further...its time..i deserve it..

My new car.. I love that little Passat... the gas milage is amazing... i have had it 25 days now.. in that time i have spent on gas still less then what i used in my truck for 7 days..but alas no one wants to buy my bug project...

house..............i want a place of my own..i hate renting.. i wish i could buy the house we live in... i got so many ideas for it...its small but what i want to do would expand it and make it awesome 

alcohol.....i drinking to much on my days off......

Wussy ...........I am a big one.....to scared to get my ankle surgery

this is life............

and I wanna be home

If I had 25,000$

My life would be happier
25,000$ should more then cover all debts to parents and collectors
well not worried bout collectors

but my parents...........
i would love to hand them a stack of all money owed.. and a paper to sign to agknowlage it.. then never talk to them again
thats so sad to feel that way yet be justified in it because their actions.

I am just upset
I got so close to point of being able to pay them monthy like agreed
but they dont wanna wait a couple weeks for me to finish..

my wife is asleep
i hate my shift
i miss her

hope it was worth it...

so we been moved out all of hmm 1month ..not even that
we told them we are going to move things out slowly so we can get them put away cause its a smaller place and things need to be done that way..
oh no
from "you guys cant move out" to pretty much "get the fuck out"
she keeps forcing us to dump all are stuff here and not chance going through or putting it away
yesterday was taking ahm to school and drove by and she had put some of our stuff with personal information in them even outside
and she thinks its okay..whats worse is the file cabitnet had a lot of ahmbras personal stuff.. and just a couple days ago some girl was almost kidnapped just on other side of my parents 5th wheel..bah

she treats all are shit like shit
she bitches bout sasha never goes over there..
well duh she has a meth head felon living there
she said its ok for our house to be trashed because she wants that room back.

so in the next few days once rest of stuff is out of their.. they are getting cut off from the kids..
kids dont need to be around that nutcase again for more nutcase stuff go to whywehavetomove.livejournal.com

i could go more into her but i dont want to...

so the job is going good the managers love me and been trained a lot.. already seemed to be being groomed to advance which is nice to see them notice how well i work.. so lots a potential at this new job

So since cutting my parents out o fmy life.. i got a lot on my mind.. 3 people are my family and they mean the world to me..they make me happy..they make me whole.. i love each and every one of them

I miss sasha all the time at work..I donno seems like for awhile i was soo distant and now all i wanna do is be close and snuggle with her.. shes such a perfect person in my eyes...and she puts up with my shit.. hehehe

tax return time. and the fun it will bring............
going to first get a comuter car.. something like a honda civic or somthing that gets 25+mpg
we got a whole list of household things we need
deffinatly a new telephone since are home phone pretty much useless
save a 1000$ or so for this summer then add another 1200$ to that with the stimulus package checks which should comeout right before summer for family stuff/vacations or wahtever sasha wants
and the thing sasha doesnt want me to get but my computer is old and in need of upgrade so i am going ot upgrade it. spend too much. but its just time for an upgrade.. *see she puts up with my shit*

think thats all
i am tired
its 5am..
and i am upset
need sasha snuggles so later

the new job

So I have been working a month now...
already might be getting a slight promotion to audit "fill in" go me go...
2nd I love our truck but I need my tax returns to be enough to get a comuter car or it has to go..
between driving to work and back and having to 2 times a day to mcminnville and back..its too much of a gas hog to drive this much
its rediculous how 60bucks in gas bearly last 3 days
our new house is awesome.. cause its a home.. with out the nutcase..
speaking of her.. she went from "you cant move out" to basicly "get your shit and get hte fuck outta here"
we now have issues with our storage unit and them causing alot of our shit to get covered in mold including a mold/mildew resistant microfiber couch..yea gotta wait til monday to hear back from them

so all in all things are good
once we get everything out of parents out
cutting ties for a bit...
we need some family time with just us

Happy Holidays

From ME to YOU...............................................

and as figured...I work......today
worst schedule


kids got to wait until 6:00 to open presents


to make things worse...my mother..decides to have kyndle over for the night to open presents in the morning.... umm so sasha and misha have to, hope to, sleep threw them opening presents..I myself find that VERY rude my mom to pull this knowing I am at work til late and Ahmbra is at her dads til the afternoonish...I understand Scott opening presents because he goes back..but their was no reason for her to have kyndle over..

and another quick story of coocoo for cocoa puffs mother. Yesterday sasha said she was giving cody a bath and was in the bathroom doing so with door shut..my mom then took kyndle and scott and left misha out in living room by herself and didnt tell sasha they were leaving and sasha was in bathroom assuming my mom was watching misha for hte bit why she was giving cody his bath...

we got money to move out

just need to find a place

and fuck you mother.. you are seriously a rotten person and when we cut ties.. I hope you see the shit you done..